This summer has been rough.
It has been filled with an unexpected emergency surgery for my mom, the unexpected death of a close friend and unexpected relationship issues.
But from God's viewpoint, none of this was unexpected. That is so easy to lightly say and read, but when it sinks into your heart and becomes an anchor you can hold on to--it takes on a much deeper meaning.
God knew the dynamics of timing.
God knew it would all seem overwhelming.
God knew I would feel like I was drowning as one wave followed another.
I now see things a little clearer. God was faithful to give wisdom. God strengthened me in the inner man by his Spirit. He knew I needed to reaffirm my hold on his Person. He kept me from drowning, for he supplied the breath of fresh air and rest I needed to keep going every time. And it was exactly when I needed it, not necessarily when I wanted it.
Looking back over this summer, I feel wounded emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. But God has been faithful to lead me through, to bind up my wounds, and carry me when I could no longer walk.
I would not trade the last few months for an easier road.
A good friend directed me to this song last week as she was encouraging me, and it has become a capstone of this summer.
"I Shall Not Want"
It has been filled with an unexpected emergency surgery for my mom, the unexpected death of a close friend and unexpected relationship issues.
But from God's viewpoint, none of this was unexpected. That is so easy to lightly say and read, but when it sinks into your heart and becomes an anchor you can hold on to--it takes on a much deeper meaning.
God knew the dynamics of timing.
God knew it would all seem overwhelming.
God knew I would feel like I was drowning as one wave followed another.
I now see things a little clearer. God was faithful to give wisdom. God strengthened me in the inner man by his Spirit. He knew I needed to reaffirm my hold on his Person. He kept me from drowning, for he supplied the breath of fresh air and rest I needed to keep going every time. And it was exactly when I needed it, not necessarily when I wanted it.
Looking back over this summer, I feel wounded emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. But God has been faithful to lead me through, to bind up my wounds, and carry me when I could no longer walk.
I would not trade the last few months for an easier road.
A good friend directed me to this song last week as she was encouraging me, and it has become a capstone of this summer.
"I Shall Not Want"
From the love of my own comfort
From the fear of having nothing
From a life of worldly passions
Deliver me O God
From the need to be understood
From the need to be accepted
From the fear of being lonely
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God
And I shall not want, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
From the fear of serving others
From the fear of death or trial
From the fear of humility
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God
And I shall not want, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
From the fear of having nothing
From a life of worldly passions
Deliver me O God
From the need to be understood
From the need to be accepted
From the fear of being lonely
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God
And I shall not want, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
From the fear of serving others
From the fear of death or trial
From the fear of humility
Deliver me O God
Deliver me O God
And I shall not want, I shall not want
When I taste Your goodness I shall not want
Thanks Melinda. I needed to hear those words. I shudder at so many memories of this past year when they come to mind. Thanks for giving a right perspective.
ReplyDelete